What is LOVE?

For The First Time In My Life

For the first time in my life, 

I am in a dilemma whether to feel sad

As I pack my luggage;

Coz I have to say good bye to this place.

Usually I do not hesitate to feel anything
Nor do I hesitate to express what I feel.
I feel that's how you be honest to yourself
That's how a smile comes to your face
When you go to bed at night.

Still I am hesitating even to feel; why so?
May be bcoz in these years I have learnt
For the first time in my life, that
There is no place for emotions;
So why be emotional for something
Which has taught me to be emotion-less;
Why to waste even a drop of tear for something
Which has taught me how to fight back tears;
Why to be weak for something
Which has made me stronger;
Why try to keep attachment with something
Which has taught me to let go of attachment.

Still a part of me whispers-
"Feel what you wanna feel- it's ok!"

But I cannot; coz
If I allow myself to be my true self
I would like to let go of all the emotions of a normal human
I would like to smell this place and tell loudly- thank you for all you have taught me
I would like to say that I never wanna let you go
I would like the time to stop forever
I would never like to say goodbye;

So it is better that - Let the inevitable happen;
It is better that I hold on my emotions
It is better that I do not say Thank You
It is better that I let you go
It is better that the time moves forward
It is better that I say Good-Bye

Coz as they say
"Always there is a first time!"